What I am going to briefly write deserves an even more in-depth explanation. But for the time being, I'd like to make some form of a statement. 

I believe the consequence of my life have been a result of a series of miscommunications. I keep replaying the scenario that unfolded during my time as an educator. How such an incredibly wonderful career filled with purpose and meaning so quickly slipped through my fingers. I can never pinpoint one specific instance. What I am assured of is within the teaching enviroment I was in there was a great deal of poor communication skills. Myself included. There are things I have said and done based on the grounds of evidence. There are also things that I have said and done to provoke corroboration upon speculation. The greatest difficulty of my circumstances is not knowing the depths of repurcussions associated with my actions. I can assure you it was my sole intention to enter this community and educational department to become the best teacher I could be. From the deepest depths of my heart, I am so sorry that this is not how things have unfolded. If there has been any additional harm as a result of things I have done I can assure you I live with the guilty weight of not knowing. 

I am trying to move on from a series of situations. This only feels possible if I take some degree of accountability. I am an extremely difficult person to care for. I have had to fend for myself for longer than any person should. My decision making has been rooted in self preservation, while many others have taken risks on me. 

I would like to go camping somewhere warm. With a handful of people that I have come to trust believe it or not. I'd like us to leave all of our technology behind. I'd like them to teach me everything I have missed in the last few years. I'd like to show them the way of the poet. I can assure you there are things I can teach, but I have shown immense depths of restraint for the arguments of my character seem to be that this is a weakness of mine.

On this journey, I have lost so many photos. I have not seen any headlines. I have not seen what you guys have seen. I am trapped in a well.